Settling in

Chinese new year is here!!! Though there’s not much mood this year, it’s been quite a huge change in adjusting to taking care of a little one.

Thanks to uncle Markie who is able to take 2 weeks leave to help out w the confinement. Though basically e main task of feeding is still me since I am bf…it’s good to have someone to share e changing or pacifying e kid…cooking meals for me while I conc on fulfilling Eli needs.

I am just worried about e weeks approaching without uncle mark…it means I only have myself to rely on. Only at night will I have my mum and uncle mark to help take care while I catch a wink.

Confinement can really b boring since I only have Eli to talk to most of e time if am left alone. Apart from him crying massively…it does get pretty lonely. Glad to have iPhone around to entertain while I pump or bf Eli in e sanctuary of my room. Soon it will be Eli’s 1 month old celebration. Still pondering over what should we do. I am thinking of inviting close friends and family but some have different thoughts and seriously want to expand to many people. Talk bout budget constraint here!

Nighttime is fast approaching. Really hate e nights as Eli does not cooperate in e feeding and drinking of milk process. He totally likes to bring e house down every time he opens that mouth of his.

Can’t wait for e confinement month to b over. I really do want to go out of e house looking decently decent. Now I just feel half naked all e time due to e need to bf and keep e milk coming.

To uncle mark: here’s to celebrating our monthly versary! *clink* fake wine glasses and lots of soiled nappies!

Arrival

Finally e day arrived with Eli brought to e world. Thanks to various aunties and friends, Eli was super well received!
Thanks everyone for e pressies!

So here I am blogging in e morning, waiting for him to be fetched to me for his feed. Sadly to say…I have no colostrum…no milk despite given birth for 4days now. He tried latching to no milk produced. Though e initial plan was to put him on total breastfeeding, I seriously do not want him to suffer jaundice and thus put him on supplementary feed of formula milk via cup feeding. It’s not too bad actually. I thought I will be super against or unhappy about not being able to provide e basic milk for a child…but so far…I actually think its e best move.

Of course, meantime I am totally getting my breasts squeezed and prodded by nurses (freaking painful), massaged b4 every feed, pumping it after every feed…putting warm pads, using nipple cream…taking pills to increase milk flow…basically doing everything to see if I can squeeze out even a tiny drop of white liquid. Sadly as of today…nothing again! The lactation docs also can’t do much except to prod at me now and then. Sad case!

Oh wells, let’s hope that today after discharging and going home, things will get better. I do hope I can produce at least some milk for Eli’s antibodies to b stronger…gosh!

Staying so many days at e hospital is no joke. I have yet to see e sun for e past 3days. Kinda feel like a vampire.

Tummy and water retention still far from subsiding. Seems like to b a slim mummy is tough! Sigh another sad part of pregnancy…it’s no wonder why guys end up finding new wives…hahaha after I looked at my body I also think that the chances are very high. It’s do hard to look at myself now much less others. Hmmz. Guess that’s where true love steps in. Otherwise change focus and just see how ‘adorable’ e young one is. Blah!